December 3rd, 2009
First and foremost I would like to wish everyone a happy healthy holiday season. May you spend this day with people you value most creating quality memories.
I would also like to take a moment to touch on matters that we often seem to ignore during this season. No doubt that for many, the holidays can surface some very deep rooted emotions. Stemming from family, friends, and especially the loss of loved ones. Filling a household with tons of people and expecting all to get along is a feet even Santa can’t overcome at times! Know you are not alone in your anxiety : )
For those of you who are missing someone special to your hearts, also know that you are in the companionship of millions around the world. Separation is painful to say the least, in all forms. Take a moment to send them love through meditation, prayer, and warm wishes. I truly believe it will reach them, even if you are not quite sure where they are. Also try your best not to push those who are close to you in this moment away. Let them in and be grateful for their love as best you can.
I suppose my main statement for today is to acknowledge that very few things in life are ideal. It is not fair to your friends or family or yourself for that matter to expect them to be. I believe life is all based on a series of choices. How you choose to perceive, how you choose to react, and how you choose to give. Today I am choosing love. The love for my Mom, my family, my friends and myself.
Happy Holidays to all of you…my friends.
Amber Ojeda
November 6th, 2009
It is now 1:19 am on the 6th day of November.. and I am sitting in my room with my biggest fear, me.
It’s amazing what life can give and take away… share and conceal. How it perplexes us with puzzles, only revealing slowly with time it’s resolve . Oh what a game, what a crazy marvelous parade. What a labyrinth of love, of lust, of lonely.
My hair is standing on end as I write this.. since the last full moon I have felt this crazy electric feeling surging through me. I have no idea what the shift is taking place within but I am open. The way is clear for change. Through my heart, to the heavens I am ready for what is coming. Is anyone else feeling upright sitting on the edge of something huge? It is hard to put my finger quite on it.
I have spent the better half of a year in hiding. No dating, minimal sharing, and consequently no pain. Living with the motion that if I simply don’t take any risk, nothing bad will result. Obviously the result is this.. Nothing can be gained from withholding love. Nothing can advance if you remain idle. Nothing is the only byproduct of living in fear, and that is what I have been doing. Well, some healing has been taking place too : ) Don’t get me wrong, I actually don’t regret it. This dormancy (if you will) has been absolutely essential to the cultivation of my spirit. I have finally allowed me to love me, and believe me when I say an introduction was in order. It’s uncomfortable to say the least to confront miss representations of self… of ideals.. of unfair expectations. However, somehow here I am, stripped and electrified by the process!
So hello, my name is Amber Ojeda.
It is the 6th day of November and I have returned to me.
Won’t you please join the parade?
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