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It is now 1:19 am on the 6th day of November.. and I am sitting in my room with my biggest fear, me.

It’s amazing what life can give and take away… share and conceal. How it perplexes us  with puzzles,  only  revealing slowly with time it’s resolve . Oh what a game, what a crazy marvelous parade. What a labyrinth of love, of lust, of lonely.
My hair is standing on end as I write this.. since the last full moon I have felt this crazy electric feeling surging through me. I have no idea what the shift is taking place within but I am open. The way is clear for change. Through my heart, to the heavens I am ready for what is coming. Is anyone else feeling upright sitting on the edge of something huge? It is hard to put my finger quite on it.
I have spent the better half of a year in hiding. No dating, minimal sharing, and consequently no pain. Living with the motion that if I simply don’t take any risk, nothing bad will result. Obviously the result is this.. Nothing can be gained from withholding love. Nothing can advance if you remain idle. Nothing is the only byproduct of living in fear, and that is what I have been doing. Well, some healing has been taking place too : ) Don’t get me wrong, I actually don’t regret it. This dormancy (if you will) has been absolutely essential to the cultivation of my spirit. I have finally allowed me to love me, and believe me when I say an introduction was in order. It’s uncomfortable to say the least to confront miss representations of self… of ideals.. of unfair expectations. However, somehow here I am, stripped and electrified by the process!
So hello, my name is Amber Ojeda.
It is the 6th day of November and I have returned to me.
Won’t you please join the parade?

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