A little dark but you get the vibe : )

and this one…

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I am happy to say this is the first time in my life (that I can remember anyway), that I will be having AND hosting Thanksgiving dinner with both of my parents present. Despite their separation, my parents are very loving and compassionate toward one another. I am unable to count on one single finger the number of negative things my Mom has ever said about my Dad. She was loving towards him for the greater good, ME. I did not really know my dad growing up, but I can speak of the last few years in which I have begun to really know him and this is apparent to me… Love is a powerful allegiance. It transcends time, circumstance, bad decisions… and separation. I am not saying by any means that they will ever be together again, what I am referencing is how awe struck I am by both sides abilities to acknowledge the positive.

This observation leads me towards evaluating ways in which I could acknowledge the greater good in my own life. If you know me on a personal level at all, calling me a worrier is an understatement. I like to plan. I like to have an opening statement and an exit strategy. I over analyze everything. Too often I exclude myself from things and people I love based on conditions I give MYSELF!!! Crazy, I know. I don’t know exactly when the shift took place that being my own bully was acceptable, but it most certainly is not. On top of that, it’s hard for me (and others I presume) to stay present. There are so many distractions! Cell phones, ipods, TV, never mind our own brains : ) I often find myself in one place doing something, all the while totally fixated on whats next. Even worse, spending time with someone and constantly checking my phone. I feel that our immediate connection to everything digital is simultaneously straining our connection to all things human. Most importantly the connection to ourselves.

So let me turn this around. All this bottled up excitement I am miss-labeling as anxiety. As I sit here at my desk illuminated in the glow of my iMac, I am connected and grateful. I am grateful for my amazing roommate, my family, my kick ass home… my talents, my job, my friends and my innocent little crushes. I am overjoyed by the people who have entered my life in the past year. SO many beautiful souls, so many lessons learned, so many connections I never dreamed possible. I love my city.

I truly believe nothing is by chance. You reading this right now are a part of my journey. As I am yours. If I don’t know you yet… I hope to soon. I hope to have a moment of truth, cell phones aside. I hope we say we will meet for coffee and get this…. ready for it… MEAN it!!! We are only as impeccable as our word. I promise when we speak to do my best and stay present, I hope you do the same….

I love you. I love you. I love you. …and I love turkey = )

Gobble Gobble everyone!

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Upcoming Show Nov 17th @ Angels… NO COVER!!!!

This place has an amazing vibe and great energy. Last weeks show was FULL so get there early!

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Here is a little snippet of my show last month @ Harvelles with Ryan Cross and Soul Funk!!

Thank you to everyone who came out!

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It is now 1:19 am on the 6th day of November.. and I am sitting in my room with my biggest fear, me.

It’s amazing what life can give and take away… share and conceal. How it perplexes us  with puzzles,  only  revealing slowly with time it’s resolve . Oh what a game, what a crazy marvelous parade. What a labyrinth of love, of lust, of lonely.
My hair is standing on end as I write this.. since the last full moon I have felt this crazy electric feeling surging through me. I have no idea what the shift is taking place within but I am open. The way is clear for change. Through my heart, to the heavens I am ready for what is coming. Is anyone else feeling upright sitting on the edge of something huge? It is hard to put my finger quite on it.
I have spent the better half of a year in hiding. No dating, minimal sharing, and consequently no pain. Living with the motion that if I simply don’t take any risk, nothing bad will result. Obviously the result is this.. Nothing can be gained from withholding love. Nothing can advance if you remain idle. Nothing is the only byproduct of living in fear, and that is what I have been doing. Well, some healing has been taking place too : ) Don’t get me wrong, I actually don’t regret it. This dormancy (if you will) has been absolutely essential to the cultivation of my spirit. I have finally allowed me to love me, and believe me when I say an introduction was in order. It’s uncomfortable to say the least to confront miss representations of self… of ideals.. of unfair expectations. However, somehow here I am, stripped and electrified by the process!
So hello, my name is Amber Ojeda.
It is the 6th day of November and I have returned to me.
Won’t you please join the parade?

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