I am happy to say this is the first time in my life (that I can remember anyway), that I will be having AND hosting Thanksgiving dinner with both of my parents present. Despite their separation, my parents are very loving and compassionate toward one another. I am unable to count on one single finger the number of negative things my Mom has ever said about my Dad. She was loving towards him for the greater good, ME. I did not really know my dad growing up, but I can speak of the last few years in which I have begun to really know him and this is apparent to me… Love is a powerful allegiance. It transcends time, circumstance, bad decisions… and separation. I am not saying by any means that they will ever be together again, what I am referencing is how awe struck I am by both sides abilities to acknowledge the positive.

This observation leads me towards evaluating ways in which I could acknowledge the greater good in my own life. If you know me on a personal level at all, calling me a worrier is an understatement. I like to plan. I like to have an opening statement and an exit strategy. I over analyze everything. Too often I exclude myself from things and people I love based on conditions I give MYSELF!!! Crazy, I know. I don’t know exactly when the shift took place that being my own bully was acceptable, but it most certainly is not. On top of that, it’s hard for me (and others I presume) to stay present. There are so many distractions! Cell phones, ipods, TV, never mind our own brains : ) I often find myself in one place doing something, all the while totally fixated on whats next. Even worse, spending time with someone and constantly checking my phone. I feel that our immediate connection to everything digital is simultaneously straining our connection to all things human. Most importantly the connection to ourselves.

So let me turn this around. All this bottled up excitement I am miss-labeling as anxiety. As I sit here at my desk illuminated in the glow of my iMac, I am connected and grateful. I am grateful for my amazing roommate, my family, my kick ass home… my talents, my job, my friends and my innocent little crushes. I am overjoyed by the people who have entered my life in the past year. SO many beautiful souls, so many lessons learned, so many connections I never dreamed possible. I love my city.

I truly believe nothing is by chance. You reading this right now are a part of my journey. As I am yours. If I don’t know you yet… I hope to soon. I hope to have a moment of truth, cell phones aside. I hope we say we will meet for coffee and get this…. ready for it… MEAN it!!! We are only as impeccable as our word. I promise when we speak to do my best and stay present, I hope you do the same….

I love you. I love you. I love you. …and I love turkey = )

Gobble Gobble everyone!

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